So, really all I want is closure. I am slowly becoming more and more ok with the fact that we can never be. It’s the hardest thing ive ever had to do, but day by day im making some progress. The last few days have been good but now im back to square one, again.  I don’t understand why this is happening? Ive never had to deal with anything like this bullshit im going through with you, this is all new and very confusing to me. I have so many mixed emotions right now im not sure whether to cry, or scream or laugh. This is a big stress on me emotionally and on my heart. Its like a have a heavy sack of weights on my shoulder…. I just want to know why? After all we had it just ended and you are someone completely different. Why?

How can you be so heartless to tell me that you love me, care for me and want no one else and you are so happy you met me then just leave like that? What did I do so wrong to make you change your mind so fast? You are so inconsiderate and dumb to anyone elses feelings besides yours. You are just full of bullshit excuses and lies, so honestly I don’t even know why I still even want you.  I tried texting and calling you and completely ignore it… then randomly call me? How is that fair? How can you say you love me then say we need a break and we don’t even talk? I gave 1000% and you didn’t even give 15% and you were completely fine and dandy with it, but I wasn’t and you had no idea why.

Honestly, its common sense. I’m a girl and we are like puppies.. all we need is some attention and love. You gave me none of that. How hard is it to send a text in the morning? And why should I even have to ask for one? If you so called “loved” me then shouldn’t you be dying to talk to me and trying to every second of your ‘busy’ life’s schedule? And if you had no time to text me from being busy at work that now that we have broken up you have all this time for facebook?

You seriously drive me nuts. I just want closure. No more gray… I need black and white answers. Yes and No. You cant expect me to just sit there and wait for your ass to dick around with little girls to then realize you want me. Well if im not good enough for you no one will be, so good luck finding another girl that will put up with your bullshit. You have a lot of growing up to do. I don’t need this stress in my life but I still cant let you go and that makes me the most mad. Someone I knew for so little time took my heart and ran with it then broke it and handed it right back to me and here I am dazed and confused and lost on what is happening and where to go from here.

I just need to talk to you.